At the the beginning of the summer I started a photo album on my Facebook (as I do every summer) and titled it "The Summer of Endings and Beginnings", I don't think I realized how true of a statement that was going to be until now. I've had one of the craziest summers I have had in a long time. From the death of a dear classmate just days after after school ended (R.I.P Chase) to being crazy sick with my sugar for a solid 2 months (we're talking bed ridden, no lights on, can't eat, throwing up everything in your system, shaking and feeling weak... almost sounds like the flu, but nope. It was my sugar). From personal family problems to being unsure of whether or not I was going back to IBC. Not to mention my sister-in-law backed into my car and crushed my back left door, my brother got married, and I had to face a few fears that I wasn't sure I was ready to face.
There were a few upsides to this summer as well though. I was able to see friends and family that I hadn't seen in a long time. I was able to grow closer to my cousins children and get to know them better as well. My 3rd niece was born (My friend Kara's youngest daughter). My brother got married (I know I posted it kinda as a stress factor up above and it was... weddings are stressful. But it was a joyous occasion as well). I was able to witness the amazing things God is doing in my home church. The fears I was afraid to face I faced with great triumph . And can I say that all the new pieces of clothing, pairs of shoes, and other random pieces I bought and were given to me were a great blessing as well. I was also able to be used as a light in the darkness, a witness if you will. I thank God for allowing me to be used.
I don't think I could or would want to repeat my summer. Though I did have many good moments the bad moments caused enough grief to last a lifetime. I learned a lot this summer though. I learned you're only as mature as you act (and a mature mindset will show in your actions), doesn't matter what happens or whether you agree or not a true friend will do whatever they have to do to help a friend out (within reason obviously), and your sins will find you out. Maybe not today, and maybe not tomorrow ... but they will find you out.
As I'm packing my things up I'm anticipating the great school year ahead of me. I know it's going to be crazy, hard, amazing, life changing, and trying. But I also know that God has great things for this yr. I don't just hope that, but I know that for a fact. And I've decided that I want to be apart of these great things . So I have decided that to start fasting, praying, reading my bible, and to be more of a witness. Why is that you always seem to make these decisions come JR yr. ? I always seem to hear JR's and SR's talk about how they wished they wouldn't have been so careless in the freshman and sophmore yr. and I'm finding out that statement to be true.
I have also decided to make a few promises to myself. I've decided I'm going to start putting myself out there and talking to ppl more. Even ppl I've been going to school w/ since Freshman yr. and haven't hardly said 2 words to. I'm also going to start taking better care of myself. In both public appearance and keeping my room clean and up kept. I know how to look nice. I know how to dress cute and fix my hair...but I got so caught up in the hum-drum of side bun, black skirt, random top, black flats and go. Don't get me wrong that's cute put too repetitive. So I'm going to start dressing cuter and fixing my hair more. I feel better about myself when I do so. And my room...well that's going to be an ongoing battle. But I'm determined to keep a clean and tidy room (someone hold me accountable please lol).
Well I've procrastinated enough on this whole packing thing. So I best be getting back to it. I hope whoever is reading this though takes the time to look over their summer and see where they've come from just since the beginning of summer. You might be surprised of how much or even how little you've changed, learned, and know.
God Bless and Goodbye to the summer of endings and beginnings... you were a great adventure
- Aundreya
P.S. There's a few shouts from my summer :)
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